Reposting Meaninglessfull Note on Music and God: the truth of silent observation

Just realized I haven’t listened to any music for a few days now. I do wonder if not listening to music for a while explains how I was so productive [recently]. I once went 6 – 8 years (?) not listening to music in order to get closer to God. It worked. For clarification, I grew up writing songs. I spent about 20-25 years writing music. [If a day passed and I did not write a song or two, it was a meaningless, wasteful day.] Music ruled over my life, so to give up and eliminate music from my life was a major sacrifice.

Music clouds your thoughts, your heart, and your soul. I took my own version of a mystical, studied approach to communicating with God. Washing myself from the influence of music freed my mind to find God. To hear that still, small voice. Somewhere along the way that still, small voice finds me now. Despite having let music back into my life in a major way and not practicing any religion, [I still hear God when I pay attention] [God says I “pay attention less and less with each passing day”]. And that still, small voice is not Abrahamic. That is the only liberating God, to not be Abrahamic. Though, that being said, having studied the Abrahamic god to no-end, there is a great deal of wisdom literature to found there, [despite the horrors]. Such is true of any religion. It is all very curious. As Delenn of Babylon 5 said, “faith manages.”

I’m too old to point out all the evil of the Abrahamic texts, and what they mean for an understanding of life and ontology. So much has been said already, it is out there for others to find and articulated by excellent scholars on the subject. I have read enough to know nothing has been left out, so there is nothing else for me to add. I have accepted that so many in the Western world cling to evil. So, it goes. Nothing I can do about it, that is not my path in life. Notice I said “Western world” in reference to the Abrahamic faiths and not the Middle East. That is because that is an entirely different context, not to be immediately grouped in, but, yes, evil all the same, if you need to hear a simplification. God is telling me I have committed a great crime by telling you all this. “Though true, you have committed a great crime.”

I know. And I understand. People will never understand the truth of silent observation. It stills and preserves the soul.